• The Death-Bed

    IMGP2149 jacaranda cemetery

    He drowsed and was aware of silence heaped
    Round him, unshaken as the steadfast walls;
    Aqueous like floating rays of amber light,
    Soaring and quivering in the wings of sleep.
    Silence and safety; and his mortal shore
    Lipped by the inward, moonless waves of death.

    Someone was holding water to his mouth.
    He swallowed, unresisting; moaned and dropped
    Through crimson gloom to darkness; and forgot
    The opiate throb and ache that was his wound.
    Water—calm, sliding green above the weir.
    Water—a sky-lit alley for his boat,
    Bird- voiced, and bordered with reflected flowers
    And shaken hues of summer; drifting down,
    He dipped contented oars, and sighed, and slept.

    Night, with a gust of wind, was in the ward,
    Blowing the curtain to a glimmering curve.
    Night. He was blind; he could not see the stars
    Glinting among the wraiths of wandering cloud;
    Queer blots of colour, purple, scarlet, green,
    Flickered and faded in his drowning eyes.

    Rain—he could hear it rustling through the dark;
    Fragrance and passionless music woven as one;
    Warm rain on drooping roses; pattering showers
    That soak the woods; not the harsh rain that sweeps
    Behind the thunder, but a trickling peace,
    Gently and slowly washing life away.

    He stirred, shifting his body; then the pain
    Leapt like a prowling beast, and gripped and tore
    His groping dreams with grinding claws and fangs.
    But someone was beside him; soon he lay
    Shuddering because that evil thing had passed.
    And death, who’d stepped toward him, paused and stared.

    Light many lamps and gather round his bed.
    Lend him your eyes, warm blood, and will to live.
    Speak to him; rouse him; you may save him yet.
    He’s young; he hated War; how should he die
    When cruel old campaigners win safe through?

    But death replied: ‘I choose him.’ So he went,
    And there was silence in the summer night;
    Silence and safety; and the veils of sleep.
    Then, far away, the thudding of the guns.

    Siegfried Sassoon

    WWI poem quoted on Numb3rs

  • Mountain Forest in the mist

    Light rain, the mountain forest
    Is wrapped in mist,
    Slowly the fog changes
    To clouds and haze.
    Along the boundless river bank,
    Many crows.
    I walk to a hill overlooking the valley
    To sit in zazen.
    – Ryokan (1758-1831)

  • Growing slowly

    Be not afraid of growing slowly, be only afraid of standing still.

    – chinese proverb

  • Paths to the top

    There are many paths to the top of the mountain – but the view is always the same.

    – chinese proverb

  • Grant Mclellan video

    Promo video for Grant McLennan’s Lighting Fires

  • Everything straight lieth

    “Then happened that which made me lighter: for the dwarf sprang from my shoulder, the prying sprite! And it squatted on a stone in front of me. There was however a gateway just where we halted.

    “Look at this gateway! Dwarf!” I continued, “it hath two faces. Two roads come together here: these hath no one yet gone to the end of.

    This long lane backwards: it continueth for an eternity. And that long lane forward—that is another eternity.

    They are antithetical to one another, these roads; they directly abut on one another:—and it is here, at this gateway, that they come together. The name of the gateway is inscribed above: ‘This Moment.’

    But should one follow them further—and ever further and further on, thinkest thou, dwarf, that these roads would be eternally antithetical?”—

    “Everything straight lieth,” murmured the dwarf, contemptuously. “All truth is crooked; time itself is a circle.”

    – Friedrich Nietzsche, 1844-1900
    “Thus Spake Zarathustra”

  • moments lost in time

    I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe.
    Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.
    I watched c-beams glitter in the dark near the Tanhauser Gate.
    All these moments will be lost in time.
    Like tears in rain.
    Time to die.”

    – Rutger Hauer as ‘Batty’ in Blade Runner

  • sky and water merging

    Like sky and water merging
    During autumn,
    Like snow and moon
    Having the same color,
    This field is without boundary,
    Beyond direction,
    Magnificently one entity
    Without edge or seam.
    – Hongzhi (1091-1157)

  • When I am dead, my dearest

    When I am dead, my dearest,
    Sing no sad songs for me;
    Plant thou no roses at my head,
    Nor shady cypress tree:
    Be the green grass above me
    With showers and dewdrops wet;
    And if thou wilt, remember,
    And if thou wilt, forget.

    I shall not see the shadows,
    I shall not feel the rain;
    I shall not hear the nightingale
    Sing on, as if in pain:
    And dreaming through the twilight
    That doth not rise nor set,
    Haply I may remember,
    And haply may forget.

    – Christina Rossetti (1783-1854)

  • Time’s winged chariot

    But at my back I always hear
    Time’s winged chariot hurrying near;
    And yonder all before us lie
    Deserts of vast eternity.

    – Andrew Marvell (To his Coy Mistress)